Mindsplit - 29 Mar 2023

 While I learn to embrace the storms in me 

For the darkness given by all is steering 

The wheel that I turn, Kali, name it all

The black of me turned to a yellow ball

Of fire, sun on my skin I aspire 

Higher 

Than this mortal flesh, I weep for the loss

For the mesh, rejections slips stack 

And I hack the prison minds, shackles

All try to bound, my wrists, tied to a cross

"Burn the witch" they said, I lost 

My self, died again, how many re-births

Shall I take

Before I break? 

Before you all see 

The power and joy that you feel 

In this soul covered by thick skin,

Puppet on a string you all see 

The rope is invisible, but the will

Ask your selves to where it ends 

While I bend, kneel as my power lends

To your behalf, well-being and kill

Yet again this spirit, child 

The future I still 

See 

Unraveling, ravishing hurricanes 

To heal.

And it hurt, that I don't belong 

To anybody but the truth 

That I am not anyone's to hold 

An acute pain in the heart

It strikes, lands apart 

The earth quakes

The bells ring on my feet

While I dance again to your will

For the blame - I can take it all

Give your darkness to me,

Make me fall

And in this tall abyss 

I will fly my wings 

Till I find my somebody 

To me, committed to be

Mine, to shine 

Together, 

Brave

To far away skies

In a galaxy 

High 

Surrounded by our stars

Home in the nebulae we have

Forever and always in sight

Touch 

Mind connected to heart

Energies bound

To one another

In our cosmic ship to gather

All we will ever be

My reverie turned reality.

Lo.Phi. -19.Mar.2023

Dark forest ablaze, lighting the sky above 

Two falling stars, heavenly woe

You sleep with the moon guiding you

To me, I bring the dawn, you see…

Reverie, call my name, similar to 

A storm, the light in you

The dark of me is to 

Burn everything in a rage, longing for you 

Rowing our ship on these oceans, I weep, 

Walk on burning coal, each day, accept the steep

Pathway to your will, desire, kill me 

Again each day, and I rise from the ashes free

From society’s chains, and dance like a monkey

To your rhythm, our frequencies like poetry

I met you in the future, you’ve taken me aback

Stole glances from me but wouldn’t dare to ask 

“Hey hurricane, how have you been?”

Purity embodied, you magically spelled me into stories

Known in all mythologies, music in my soul, the lore of me is

Now your whispers’ balm on my ears, breath over my neck

Spiritually held, divinity has bent, their knee

To our identity

As one

And would you think?

I would blink?

Would I ever allow any to forget the love we bear?

I’ll dance rasa-lila to your name, diamond in a tower

Veneration while I breathe, fire in my speech, people cower 

At it, and I seek no permission to feel, pray, and alter destinies 

Windwalker, I see, you walk on water, ether like, paint tapestries

With your smile, the burning in your eyes deafens all the noise

While your laughter, thunder to my joys.

Dad? - 10.03.2023

 

How many times do I need to pass through your death, father?

Having not caught the moment to say good-bye then

Have I disappointed you? I did my best and

I’m tired, alone and scared, I falter, further

From the happiness you wished for me,

The winter is harsher, life got harder

Yet I still fight, I’m tired father

I want to rest, maybe take me to there?

Where is best?

To sleep?

And never wake,

In bliss abiding

No wish, … no rent

No food to ask for

No love

Nor joy

No sorrow

No pain

It rained,

The second day we buried you.

Last night? You died again in my arms, bloody, I was crying

I was trying, to tell you

I love you, I miss you

Was I the last person to see you?

Leave my apartment?

Then never to be heard again, 

Only to be found sleeping

Alone...

Were you in pain?

I'm sorry I could not be more.

I hope ... you found your peace

And hurt never more.

Have you ever? 3.3.2023

 

You said it.

You said it'd be alright.

Notions deep as oceans, they're calling out my name

You can scream it while dealing with the pain 

My mind off you can't go, I'm never away

Eyes are as real as these shadows

We battle them in the dark, 

Together, embraced, I can be your light

House on a stormy shore 

A thousand thunders won't turn me around 

Your neck is bloody red stained marked

You're not alone, you got me now

Whatever it takes, howl

To the depths, I can be your moon in the dark

Shine over your hurt, heal your mind

Will you? take my hand? 

Have you? Ever loved?

Ever felt mine? You are.