Friday, March 10, 2023

Dad? - 10.03.2023

 

How many times do I need to pass through your death, father?

Having not caught the moment to say good-bye then

Have I disappointed you? I did my best and

I’m tired, alone and scared, I falter, further

From the happiness you wished for me,

The winter is harsher, life got harder

Yet I still fight, I’m tired father

I want to rest, maybe take me to there?

Where is best?

To sleep?

And never wake,

In bliss abiding

No wish, … no rent

No food to ask for

No love

Nor joy

No sorrow

No pain

It rained,

The second day we buried you.

Last night? You died again in my arms, bloody, I was crying

I was trying, to tell you

I love you, I miss you

Was I the last person to see you?

Leave my apartment?

Then never to be heard again, 

Only to be found sleeping

Alone...

Were you in pain?

I'm sorry I could not be more.

I hope ... you found your peace

And hurt never more.



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