I kept on eating, eating for dear life
Like I depended on it, survival was on strike
I kept on eating, I didn't like myself
My body tried to tell me I was becoming somebody else.
I kept on eating, feeling restless at heart.
Ask myself "what's going on? why are we mad?"
And still I kept on eating,
Soul must've been hungry for more
I should send s.o.s. signals more often
To check in with my core.
Would I wanna go knowing all that I know?
Would I keep trying to build "a dream to-go"?
Would I keep dancing to the rhythms that my heart forego?
Would I keep chanting your hymns alone?
Or do you want an altered life,
Achieve your dreams and call it strife?
I wish I had the confidence you've shown
In things pertaining to matters untold,
Unknown to my future, yet we keep holding on
With whom are we battling? Is it the ego,
Or is just the armor you like to put on?
For protection... I know.
How will I write in 10 years time
I wouldn't know for sure as moments go by
Our bones grow weary, souls should steady
Although they murmur sometimes
Disclosing hints through your eyes
Disappointment in your glance,
Afraid to hurt, I took a defense stance
Yet you held my vulnerability.
Do your hands still shake or are you with me?
Through my sun-orange to funeral-black
Are you grieving too? I know I hate my lack.
The missing parts I'm still learning to love
The broken sights that dream for just a bit more
Tho' I admit it sometimes feels I'm suffocating on a shore
Will you be just a passive chapter in the lore?
Will you fight and just hold on?
Learning to live with a stranger, whom I don't really know
She lets me ...in sometimes, she lets me borrow
A brief look at a future of us
I don't understand why they're afraid to show...
Believe, or maybe even "love" ...
Are you really here?
Or am I your method to live your escape, indulge in your vertigo?
I know you lived my madness, I tried to keep on, cling on
To hope
Hope that I'll be able to face my challenges head on
Hope to be called a doctor
SF or a myth to live for...
Or die trying to ride my ride
And keep my head above high tide.
Hai vântule, suflă-mi pe rană
Vântule rece, cu miros de iarnă
Îmi pari ca năluca jucând hore
în păduri, de iele cutreierate
Mi-ai dat o noapte,
Zile ce-au înghețat
Timpul cedat
Și te-am ales și-am ignorat
Că zborul tău părea dus în neant
Pentru cineva mai înalt.
Spune-i vântule, prinde-mă atunci când cad
Spune-i vântule cât a durut și în ce iad
Cât s-a pierdut din timp din noi, cât am să uit
Spune-i vântule când reflexiile noastre-n cioburi de suflete s-au spart
Ia-mi cuvintele mele și coase-i așternut de speranțe din ele
Ia-mi visele și acoperă-i vina
Ia-mi vântule lacrimile și du-le în inimi de dor secate
Ia-mi, în cele din urmă inima,
Ia-mi mâinile, du-te la spate, cum le-am simțit legate.
Rămâi cu mine când încă e soare
Plimbă-ți șoapta pe umerii mei, suflu prin păr răzvrătit
Rămâi cu mine în vidul meu din noapte
Și poartă-mă să pot s-ating stele departe.
Să pot să m-aprind din nebuloase colorate,
Să fie singurele ce pot să țină regrete blocate,
Transformate, să zboare precum cornetele din calea de lapte.
Rămâi cu mine vântule, să facem căi printre fapte
Să-mi oferi claritate,
Când stelele se sting, se pierd în goluri-ntunecate
Să-mi faci din meteori cercei de nestemate.
