Mukti - 21.10.2019

We're never here, never there
The pages of wisdom were burnt today
The rhythms flow, the waves still dance
We're nothing but the unwilling slaves
Of our past selves, phantom egoes
Driving all these mortal coils,
Dreaming life with joy
And sorrow
Rising from the promised land
There's sadness in the air
Sadness born of doubt.

I dreamed you dreamed about me.
We're all illusions in the end
Until we break the karmic fate,
Until from ignorance we part,
The dharmic duty done with art,
Then long-awaited liberation
Out of knowledge thus arose,
No joy, nor pleasure anymore
No further future incarnation
To wish for any treasure.
But only detachment and willingness
To return to our true nature and state
To speak the truth and then break
The painful circle of Samsara
Into the billion starred silence.
I`ll give up, Your Highness!
I wanted a daughter, Sara
But why let souls suffer?
To bear the folly of this world...
To prepare them for the battle
Make them ready for the war
Within themselves, with good and evil.
Dear, that's not a life to lead
Unless it's blood you want to spill.

I`ll sail away now on these last lines
With loving eyes,
Riddled I leave you, a shifting tide
Take as my mind, don't hold my death as your bride
Take reason as your guide, and understand the game of life.

In the eyes of the night - 20.10.2019

"Hello my dear, it`s been a while"
She tried to run and hide but near
You she found her thoughts again, she feared
She`ll lose herself, a star without a sky
In the night washed by the agony
You shared not long ago, but harmony
And peace you sought within her, no lies
A forest without trees beneath the moon`s eyes
No predator, nor pray in sight, "just us"
Forgetting the bitter dream
Anger's dripping from their voice like a star's scream...
Still you did held on, move on, toward better suns
Cold fingers and shivers intertwined with hers
Longing now, she thought of your star blushing
When it felt the love you born, blood rushing
With your gaze on her bare shoulders
And hushing, the stars that you deny, ashamed
Who`s to blame? "It's only in the mind",
Scared and vulnerable she tried
To undo the fortress' walls so you could have a peek
Inside a soul too weak, to show you all the pain
Apart from the mundane, with demons dancing inside
"Comfortable, see?"
Now would you run, or forget she ever was
If you knew where all the evil within lies?
Or would you stay, and hold her close,
Let all sorrow run its course?
Or change her fate for the worst...

And now the stars too, long for the atoms you stole
It must have been the same aster, a whole
World ahead with billion chances, but you've met
Her on domestic soil, and traveled to netherworlds
In dreams, unconscious desires set free again
She pleads the night with its thousand eyes
To let the day have one, and warm you despise
The winter that's coming harsh across,
For the mind has a thousand more thoughts,
And the heart is but done, cracking, still beating
Still waiting, still weaving...
It's the endless silence that's screaming
And only stops when you're hers and she feels it.

Better - 14.10.2019

I`m sorry for the malice, I had to let it flow
Or else it would consume and bury me low.
It was the only way I could let the poison out
Instead of crawling the walls, and I couldn`t shout
Out loud, how all this life is miserable sometimes,
How nothing makes sense and everything`s chaos.

I`m grateful though for lending an ear
For going all out, locked in memory near
The lightest, warmest rooms in the mazing mind
And every soft word spoken to me, ever so kind.

It's autumn now, sweet colored October
Birthday month, we could get lost in slumber
And sleep the blissful sleep that I so long for,
Until winter takes over, and my body`ll be colder.

I hope we`re alright, I hope you feel better
If life takes you further, or your will for the matter,
Whatever harsh wind may steal you away,
You can always come back, you`re welcome to stay.

I`ll start a bonfire with the stars in ourselves
So we can enjoy a good talk by the waves,
Together embraced, on soft sands and linger
A little while longer, to gather our strength for the meaner
Grim reality that may strike us again,
And ground our roots in the soil, feel the rain
Pouring like blessings, soft whispers of the sky,
With the lightning that comes I`ll ask again "why?"
Until no longer I doubt the reasons and start
Over again, but without falling apart.

I`ll write though, in rivers of ink, and fight
Like a martial arts master all incoming strife,
Watch then the unworthy fly like a runaway kite
For we're warriors before mere actors in life.

Madness - 12.10.2019

She held your hands so close, yet unattainable
You were each moment, second, eon
She held you in silence between
The shadow and the soul
With words inadequate to speak
Stubbornly, you grew more cold
Till nothing left remained to save
From a cluttered mind with thoughts.
Ignorant creature, ever so bold
To think that everything that shines is gold.

Whilst she leaves, you watch her go
Gaze at her spin, you clung to the ego
For more than a thousand stars she's worth!
Jealous you`ll be for tight clothes, touching her soft
Body, and all the glasses she drinks from,
For the rosy red lips, a kiss... taste venom
And it may fill your rivers, your baths with blood
And one last glimpse before whatever may come.
A hurricane to hold you tight
On your most lonesome nights ...
She`s diamonds glued together, prepare for all the cuts,
And the never kept promises, on your flesh she`ll write
So you finally remember, or forget about it all,
Dumb, alone, and terrified, keep clinging to your ignorance
For the only ahead for you is mental hospitals.

Ce? - 04.10.2019

A fost totul ca-n povești
Scrise în inconștient prin vise,
S-au tot pictat dorințe, încă nestinse
De furtunile de dinainte, învinse
De zâmbete, căldura și de felul cum priveai
Clădirile în piatră, fermecat de scări exterioare
Ducând spre suflete nemuritoare,
Făurite demult în stelele care
Din praf de nebuloasă s-au născut
Și te-au împins apoi spre mine
Și m-ai adus la tine, m-ai ținut
Petrecut în illo tempore neștiut
De nimeni, doar simțind energie
Plutind pe nori, rezemată de tine
În cătușe te-am prins, mai rămâi
Nu scăpa, mai dă-mi emoție
O secundă, un veac, ieși din imaginație
Și eliberează-mă de mine,
Iubindu-mă înapoi la viață
Și învață-mă cum să mă fac zeiță
Să dominăm tot ce la călcâie șade
Și să te aleg din panteonul ce perpetuu cade
Zdrobind cu fulgere lumi moarte, planete deșarte
Vor redobândi oxigenul cu care
Ai învățat-o din nou să-l respire
Și mai departe să zboare.