Friday, December 13, 2024

Space buns - 09.12.2024

 I tried to be strong this time

I tried to make peace with the sweetened lies.

Looking at you, cold and coagulated blood is all I feel

BreaKing through your skin, 

Since you gave up, never fully gave in.


You used me, now you have new friends.

Your relationship's better, mine had to end.

You won't check-in anymore, not ask how I'm doing

Checked-out long ago, digital cemeteries and storms brewing.


You learned about new songs, new bands, new concerts and sights

From her, admired for looks, skills, half-thought jokes and chills

Bitter taste in mouth, you stopped writing first.

Did not let me go out, yet you traveled, soared

Got busy living, while I was waiting at your door

Still hoping, silly me ...

Now I roar.




I dance my way in empty houses, empty streets, abandoned sheets.

Away, cold and distant like the winter starry sky,

Running through dark forests, the ghosts of my hopes

Laughingly sway, together, dressed in white, in winter's color




Eyes so bright, teary, little child...

A tear falls, turned to crystals

Enhanced by a murmur

"Always and forever", your embrace a harbor - safe haven from evils,

Now the harbor shattered, oceans swallowed it whole,

Tsunamis of society's pleas hummed instead of thunders' bolt.



But maybe... now I wonder

Have you every really loved?

Then how could you abandon her in the dark, let her down in the cold?

Your apathy, your running away drained the will in me, 

Lack of communication, lack of trust, empathy, apologizing and acknowledgements, still...

Lack to fulfill, to live...

_______

Now dance all along, tenderly, both of us above,

Dance me to the end of love, 

The thread of life's been torn.

Dance me till the end of time, 

Dance me through all of your good-byes.

Dance me through your beauty, your smiles,

Dance me to the way your heart hums, 

The pace of your breath, 

Dance me to the end of time, 

A Scottish rhythm, your laughter chimes your eyes

Sway me through your music, dance me...

Till the end of time. 




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