Nether Sleep - 2 Mar 2025

 Climb, love, above the heavens

Breathe the air, cold, and free as ever

Purity in your heart, flow with your mind.

Let the vibrations move you,

Put your cells in perpetuum motion, 

Show me desire, pain, devotion,

Show me truth, the lies you told

They dissipate through vapors.

Beautiful soul, you see?

Our ancestors dreamt of you,

So proud, to find you

Dancing with the stars, 

While your fire moves mountains apart.

You are now soaring, thriving in your self

Keep chanting, witcher,

While I perform my spells

As nature unfolds, the cosmos is dreaming of changing netherworlds.

Origini - 2 Mar 2025

Ce vezi tu, suflet, când te uiți la cer?

Ce prinzi în văzduh când vântul

Îți perie părul de culoare de nuc?

Când te-ai pierdut?

Cu toamna aridă

Cu sângele-n păr, artificial în oglindă?

Cât mai călătorești, rătăcești ...

Printre zgomotele reci

Ale lumii, deopotrivă seci?

Apleacă-ți corpul, sufletul să închini

Nu la zei, ci la spini,

Spinii dulci ai unui trandafir.

Voința s-o menții

Să-ți vindeci, suflet, amarul inimii. 

Space buns - 09.12.2024

 I tried to be strong this time

I tried to make peace with the sweetened lies.

Looking at you, cold and coagulated blood is all I feel

BreaKing through your skin, 

Since you gave up, never fully gave in.

You used me, now you have new friends.

Your relationship's better, mine had to end.

You won't check-in anymore, not ask how I'm doing

Checked-out long ago, digital cemeteries and storms brewing.

You learned about new songs, new bands, new concerts and sights

From her, admired for looks, skills, half-thought jokes and chills

Bitter taste in mouth, you stopped writing first.

Did not let me go out, yet you traveled, soared

Got busy living, while I was waiting at your door

Still hoping, silly me ...

Now I roar.

I dance my way in empty houses, empty streets, abandoned sheets.

Away, cold and distant like the winter starry sky,

Running through dark forests, the ghosts of my hopes

Laughingly sway, together, dressed in white, in winter's color

Eyes so bright, teary, little child...

A tear falls, turned to crystals

Enhanced by a murmur

"Always and forever", your embrace a harbor - safe haven from evils,

Now the harbor shattered, oceans swallowed it whole,

Tsunamis of society's pleas hummed instead of thunders' bolt.

But maybe... now I wonder

Have you every really loved?

Then how could you abandon her in the dark, let her down in the cold?

Your apathy, your running away drained the will in me, 

Lack of communication, lack of trust, empathy, apologizing and acknowledgements, still...

Lack to fulfill, to live...

_______

Now dance all along, tenderly, both of us above,

Dance me to the end of love, 

The thread of life's been torn.

Dance me till the end of time, 

Dance me through all of your good-byes.

Dance me through your beauty, your smiles,

Dance me to the way your heart hums, 

The pace of your breath, 

Dance me to the end of time, 

A Scottish rhythm, your laughter chimes your eyes

Sway me through your music, dance me...

Till the end of time. 

Noiembrie - 10/23.11.2024

E zgomot afară, e zgomot în jur

Iubește-mă-o clipă, ascunde-mă-n fum

Și  pune pe rug inelele lui Saturn.

Mai stai un moment, cand toate se învârt

Se învârt pe orbită, pe-o muzică mută

Mai stai un minut, înveliți în așternut.

E frig, vântul bate, hai cu mine pe Marte

Uită de moarte, trăim pentru-o zi

Cântă-mi poezii de noiembrie gri,

Și ți le voi colora în zâmbete vii,

Vom alerga pe foșnete moarte, 

Sub cerul albastru cu stele-n noapte, 

Atunci când e rece, atunci când la astre privești 

Atunci când te apropii și renunți la măști.

Tu du-te înainte eu mai stau o clipă,

Dansez pe Bach cu-o amintire, 

În rochia frunzelor ce cad și se-nfiripă

În mine, o aripă să zbor spre tine, o trăire

Capabilă, ca-un fluture în luptă.

 

Welcome to the Jungle - 18.11.2024

Welcome to the Jungle, little Cat

Spread your pawprints over sand

Find a shelter, get some rest

Cry your sorrows, tiny chest.

Come little Cat, let's sit by the water

Let us purr while world gets colder

Come little Cat, you must feel exhausted

I'll feed you some birdies,

Lest you want to hunt them.

Come little Cat, let us play together

Let your weary whiskers, prod through the aether

Come little Cat, the sun rose again

Feline sweet soul, a blank page, a new lane

Come little Cat, don't be afraid.

Doar luna - 03.11.2024

 Să nu mă alungi când visezi

Cu ochi deschiși, pășind pe covor

De frunze adormite, mai crezi?

În noi? În soare? În suflet dor

Răni, încă deschise, în noapte

Pe cer aprinse, și-mi amintesc

Șoapte ce-mi tremurau ființa, poate

Că încă mă auzi în ritm lumesc.

Mai simți răsăritul ce creștea în tine?

În cerul meu te-mbrățișam, ardeam

Când mă priveai, mă țineai, atingeri line.

Când pentru noi soarele apunea pentru doi

Parfumul tău din zori, timid zâmbeam

Știam, atunci pășeam pe nori 

Te-ai speriat de gri, de furtuna mea, acum

Pierdut pe drum, zăbovești în amintiri

Străin de tine, noi am rămas povești de fum 

Ce ard în focul toamnei, în noapte luciri.

Când vântul te atinge eu încă te mai țin

În raiul meu sărutat de soare,

Pe corabie, în valuri de culoare

De vin, nu-ți fie teamă de divin,

Prezent pretutindeni, eu încă te strig

În lumina umbrelor încă te mai simt

Înghețat te-ai oprit din joc, ai pierdut luna

Navigând spre alte stele, 

Când ai să-nțelegi că ne-ai sfârșit?

Când eu sunt doar una

... vânătorule, ai pierdut furtuna

Încercând să fii pentru toată lumea. 

Text note - 21.08.2024

 Lună dragă, Luna mea

Te ascunzi așa, după Nori, după o stea ...

Pe ape-ntinse-ți arăți gravitația

Mă duci, m-aduci, mereu spre tine, 

Mă lași să urlu, în liniște, suspine.

Mai stai o clipă, rămâi, nu te ascunde. 

La căpătâi poți sta, să luminezi noaptea din viața mea

De apoi, te voi găsi iar și iar, vom fi unul, nu doi 

Ne vom juca, dansa, cânta

Lumea a luat o șansă, eu vreau steaua mea, 

Și a ta ... una pe cer să fie, 

Vie, pururea, să nu se stingă 

Așa cum dragostea 

Ca o lumânare se adâncește-ncet, încet, 

Când sufletul desenează tunete în concert. 

Persephone PART III - Wed. Mar 29. 2023

Spring was colder than the winter that’s passed now. The feeling of it, everything harsher in March - seemed like an eerie realization to have. Persephone was supposed to come with more warmth and light, with life after … fright.


The difference that impacted it became clearer. She gasped for air while a tear ran down her cheek, a weeping whipping the heavyweight dimension of her reality now.


Quantum in nature, can you believe? The brain, the mind, the subtleties she was able to grasp.


And as soon as it came, sun shone again, you could feel the rays playing the strings over the horizon.


Do you understand now? It moves mountains, turns metal to gold, turns flowers from death, alive.


And you’ll come back to love, for you know where your home, heart and mind is. Sun is out, trust the process, and my love.

Happy World Poetry Day - 21.03.2024

 

I didn’t know I was autistic

I did not know I could relate

They did not know their raised tunes scared me

Yet still they laughed and screamed.

Overwhelmed by people touching …me …without consent..

Beforehand.

 

I did not know I was autistic …

Distracted, anxious, in pain …

I was told I was an alien, that I had something to gain.

“You're weird, cold, a robot or too flower-power ....”

Man...

I did not know I was autistic,

So I took notes, to concentrate,

So I could …function, focus, work...to understand,

So I could belong with them.

“You’re strange, you’re broken, change your self”

I wanted to be asked too for some events,

To join, to have the chance...

Make friends.

They were annoyed at my attempts, my way of thinking,

I did not share their strengths.

Was made to feel I was too much, too little too…

Yet not enough.

It’s too cold out, it hurts my skin, forgetting often to hydrate or eat

It’s better though, with music on, some days I can let go

Others I can’t, no more.

 

I did not know I was autistic,

“Too guarded, strict, and too controlled,

You are chaotic”, I was told 

When I tried only to belong.

Numai 6/7 Jan 2024

Nu mai vreau să te iubesc

Mi-a ajuns ani să tânjesc

După ploi, să ude fLorile din mine

După praf de stele, planete aride 

Galaxii îndepărtate, pleacă în ochii tăi 

Pe buzele mele, și-n cosmosul meu noi doi. 

M-ai lăsat să cad, abandonat

Într-o chimie absurdă, am decedat 

De teamă m-am trădat, am clacat

Am renunțat

La visuri pentru un viitor refuzat. 

E iarnă în mine acum, urmează tăcere

Încet îmi adun cuvintele printre fum cu durere

De mere, fructul interzis

Am să transform trauma ce a ucis

Copilul și lumina din mine, 

Iar din primăvară am să mă iubesc pe mine.

Mai stau puțin, e iarnă cu tine.

De mână cu Atena, Artemis, Persefona

Tu ai ales deja

Cariera ta, 

Eu rămân cu a mea

Melodie în cuLori

Rămâi cu bine, suflet cu nori.

Să-ți amintești să te joci și să zbori. 

Când ne mișcă vântul - 28.10.2023

 Nu cred că plângi când mă auzi, maestru al valurilor

Nu cred că florile plâng când le atinge vântul de dorul tău,

La fel cum curge sângele din mine când nu te mai văd.

Nu cred că vrei să mai ascunzi puterea anilor

Te-apasă cerul, mi-ai dat drumul la mână

Promisiuni și visuri, lăsate în urmă....

Dar te-am găsit din nou...

Nu cred că încă mai cânți ... așa cum cântă marea

După atingerea ta, așa cum mă trezește zarea

Când soarele crapă ziua, lin, cu Venus veghind

Peste noi, iubire unde te-ai pierdut?

Rătăcit pe drum? Nu știu.... cum țin florile

Parfumul aproape, când pășești printre ele...

Nu știu cum nu tremură pământul când lacrimi te pătrund

Și nu le lași să cadă, nu le lași căzând..

Nu cred....cum cântă ritmul tău cosmic în noapte

Alină inima bătând la 132, atunci când plâng și eu

Lacrimi in curcubeu, lumini de auroră se joacă cu al meu eu.

Se mai poate?

Dă-mi-te lună.

Am pășit împreună, prin foc și prin ape,

Mi-ai dovedit de atâtea ori, prin zi, prin noapte

Plângi acum, lasă văile să curgă acasă...

Nesecate de rău, le e sete ...de arșița din noi

De fulgere din nori, de m-ai fi făcut mireasă...

A nopții, vieții, morții... fețele unei monede

Lasă sufletul să cânte, până când stelele se aprind

Eu am să scriu din durere zâmbete

La umbra unui gând, atunci când noaptea cade

Voi colora pe ceruri momentele calde

Și o să învăț soarele să cânte culoarea ochilor tăi

Să pot să mă pierd mereu în ei.

Sleeping at last 5 /Sept/2023

Where's Saturn gravitating toward, sleeping at last?

In the vast infinite, grasp the star-lighting-heart,

Tearing my skin apart, raw skin, crutches to lean

While left alone to fight, bleeding I fear 

I understand more than I seem, field mines

Are set, I'm blind and handicapped, drugged

On lorazepam, cut the spam of voices around.

Travels and concerts, photos, movies and all

Bring your machine gun, I'm yours to shoot .

Ignore the trenches, they keep showing their faces

I recognize none, few seem to see, deeper than thee

Light me on fire and send me to the sea

Let the rain sizzle while the water tension breaks

..... T o be ...continued..

How do you wash your regrets?

Gasp – 21.05.2023

It’s tough these days, a spell of madness shields the unknown

Upon the ocean, the embers don’t seem to burn no more

I visited the capitals of your sorrows only to discover

That with the warmth of your smile I’d like to take cover

In the coldest of days when the sun hides, together feels like homeland

Since our wandering apart from the creation of our cells 

It takes two to the border of peace, to find within and rest

With everything that’s gone amiss, and we accept our darkness

And shadows dancing around, yet we still fight

Together to raise the sails for our boat, drive us to the harbor of Bliss

My letters are running from me, stories mingle together, and

I’m afraid of the abyss that’s lurking next to me,

From the visions that don’t leave me be.

A few minutes, couple of hours of the sun-sea I get,

You are still shining, Polaris during my nights in my days 

You make art of my frights, you keep your promises by dawn

I want to dream into being the magic in me, the face of liberty

And freedom of worry is the smile in your eyes, you bring life

Back into me while I travel within, while I cry tears 

And rainbows seem to be in the drops caught in the palm

Of a child left behind in the storm that became the present-day life

I feel tired now, waiting for the singing wind to come 

As I try to raise consciousness kissing this paper,

As it does mine, hoping to feel better.

WASD - 3.04.2023

 Never theirs to hold 

Never one to be told

"Mine" to protect 

Defend, 9 crimes

Please add one more 

It is the soul that dies

Yet again

Rebirth it in the morning 

This mourning yet alone 

Not yours to be 

You don't claim me 

Not anymore 

So maybe

I Depart from 

the shore

Sail away this tornado

A hurricane of ....

Losses

Floating, lost in verses

Flying like a fucking

Frisbee through space

Mistake 

Again 

Hoping for more

Yet reality's dogs checked in 

They don't stop, their bark

Is deafening,  just talkers 

Can't stop whispering 

Their tears withering 

Hoping for the sun 

Have you not understood yet ?

Detachment's balm 

The darkness that

Inside I hold 

Will the universe unfold?

Now that you are old ? 

Made from a broken mold 

To ashes I turn 

In fire reborn 

A dragon ... once more. 

Mindsplit - 29 Mar 2023

 While I learn to embrace the storms in me 

For the darkness given by all is steering 

The wheel that I turn, Kali, name it all

The black of me turned to a yellow ball

Of fire, sun on my skin I aspire 

Higher 

Than this mortal flesh, I weep for the loss

For the mesh, rejections slips stack 

And I hack the prison minds, shackles

All try to bound, my wrists, tied to a cross

"Burn the witch" they said, I lost 

My self, died again, how many re-births

Shall I take

Before I break? 

Before you all see 

The power and joy that you feel 

In this soul covered by thick skin,

Puppet on a string you all see 

The rope is invisible, but the will

Ask your selves to where it ends 

While I bend, kneel as my power lends

To your behalf, well-being and kill

Yet again this spirit, child 

The future I still 

See 

Unraveling, ravishing hurricanes 

To heal.

And it hurt, that I don't belong 

To anybody but the truth 

That I am not anyone's to hold 

An acute pain in the heart

It strikes, lands apart 

The earth quakes

The bells ring on my feet

While I dance again to your will

For the blame - I can take it all

Give your darkness to me,

Make me fall

And in this tall abyss 

I will fly my wings 

Till I find my somebody 

To me, committed to be

Mine, to shine 

Together, 

Brave

To far away skies

In a galaxy 

High 

Surrounded by our stars

Home in the nebulae we have

Forever and always in sight

Touch 

Mind connected to heart

Energies bound

To one another

In our cosmic ship to gather

All we will ever be

My reverie turned reality.

Lo.Phi. -19.Mar.2023

Dark forest ablaze, lighting the sky above 

Two falling stars, heavenly woe

You sleep with the moon guiding you

To me, I bring the dawn, you see…

Reverie, call my name, similar to 

A storm, the light in you

The dark of me is to 

Burn everything in a rage, longing for you 

Rowing our ship on these oceans, I weep, 

Walk on burning coal, each day, accept the steep

Pathway to your will, desire, kill me 

Again each day, and I rise from the ashes free

From society’s chains, and dance like a monkey

To your rhythm, our frequencies like poetry

I met you in the future, you’ve taken me aback

Stole glances from me but wouldn’t dare to ask 

“Hey hurricane, how have you been?”

Purity embodied, you magically spelled me into stories

Known in all mythologies, music in my soul, the lore of me is

Now your whispers’ balm on my ears, breath over my neck

Spiritually held, divinity has bent, their knee

To our identity

As one

And would you think?

I would blink?

Would I ever allow any to forget the love we bear?

I’ll dance rasa-lila to your name, diamond in a tower

Veneration while I breathe, fire in my speech, people cower 

At it, and I seek no permission to feel, pray, and alter destinies 

Windwalker, I see, you walk on water, ether like, paint tapestries

With your smile, the burning in your eyes deafens all the noise

While your laughter, thunder to my joys.