Starship - 23.12.2019

We're the captain of our ship
An astral plane you dive in deep
Care for it, and let its sails flow
Through the stellar dust it sows
What you reap, but don't give up - 
Weep if you must, but don't you quit -
Rest if you have to, but keep the flame lit
To further power the engines and seek
What you lost on your birth, eternal peace,
Quietude and bliss, dream on darling!
Still, kill the nightmares that are crawling
Subconsciously in the diamond mind
But wake up soon, you have to fight!
Remember why you started,
And find help if you need to...
Starless in the night you dive into,
Reach out your hand until it's air
That your lungs fills yet again,
Endlessly you keep turning into the void ...
Run out of there fool! and bend
Space-time if you must,
Like a phoenix rise from dust
To fire and dissolve all that is dire
To your soul and command all life
To your will to bend and become light.

Isn'it it? 23.12.2019

The quieter you become, the more you're hearing
As you drift apart, more words are screaming
Until claws on a blackboard are screeching
Diving deeper into an ocean of thinking
Thoughts that would not be there
Scenarios taking you elsewhere.

The less you feel yourself, the less your ego talks
The more you feel unloved, the more this life stalls
And alone into the unknown you step, detachment
From earthly strings, unbent sailing away
Into the night toward the starry highway
You sway with nitrogen, helium and carbon
Pass Hydrogen and further nebulae surround you
Until the greatest Gravity you meet on end
Beyond the event horizon where all sorrows mend.

Jumătate de stea - 21.12.2019

Îți mai trebuia jumătate de stea,
Timp să parcurgi să-i atingi inima.
Un veac într-o clipă ai să simți în ea,
Din eternitate te-ai înfrupta
Și-ai să-nțelegi de ce ți-a schimbat lumea.
De ce totu-i la superlativ și de ce luna
E mai frumoasă noaptea decât ziua,
Când întunericul veșminte face,
Când zgomotul din jur o privește și tace,
Când lumina din soare în sfârșit îți dă pace.
Carpe Diem mereu și ai să vezi steaua ce trage
Înspre cer să te ridice atunci când durerea zace
În tine, atunci când ochii ei îți dau energie,
Lină și căldura de care toți se simt atrași
Ca planetele-n orbită de soare, și să nu lași
Extazul în pace, mergi mai departe
Divinitatea tot înăuntrul tău șade. 

Sandglass 21.12.2019

What is a cosmos without dust?
What is a life ruled by rust?
Interstellar we go breaking the chains
Of time, let immortality run through our veins,
Space-bound, flesh-bound in this prison...
Let then earthly matter and divine energy fission,
Let freedom surround us all over,
Eternity glimpsed in those eyes when I'm colder
And then like the sun, warm me again,
Melt all primal sorrow within
Make all particles in this universe spin
Until our atoms vibrate in a beautiful rhythm. 

Noise - 18.12.2019

Do you hear me? in the mid of the night
Do you hear me? the cold and the fright...
Cuffing all bones, numb neurons in the light
Of the stars and the distant moonshine.

Do you hear me? I'm falling asleep
I swore that from now, no flower shall weep
But only rejoice, silence the noise of the talk,
Of meaningless worlds that fade, when around
We're surrounded by joy and understanding
When we can stop pretending, and start dancing
Spinning together aligned with the center of the galaxy
To the rhythm of the stars, the energy abounds
And in our eyes reflected long-sought divinity.

Serendipity in a smile, laughter and mind
For in the heart and our souls we see the divine
Nature that we forgot of, do you hear me now?
Look inside and awaken to the sound of our breath
Intertwined with matter and energy both in a bundle,
It's what we were meant to become, a whole brought from reverie.

No - 17.12.2019

Dream a little,
Dream of me.
Moon of madness,
Shoot and kill.
Try your hand
Or you may miss
Another heart
Another one
Another shut,
Hit the drum
Swallow rum
It's angry now
Gone's the calm.

But it's alright
It will be better...
You're bonkers, nut
Go back to slumber.
Until peace finds you again,
Until you learn to live with pain,
Until the sun breaks down in half,
Until the rain pours down moon dust.

It's angry now,
Smile's upside down.
Go home, you're drunk!
You don't listen, I shout
You gave up, I drown
In the sunset that's over,
Come, breaking down!

Ride a wave on your inhaling - 10.12.2019

Breathe, breathe into me to calm down the storms
Breathe out of pain and raise the light, opened souls
By the tears that wouldn't pour out, by the smiles
We shared, touched by the rays of a thousand suns
When cold the world was, and reality frozen around
When the weight of acceptance wouldn't care to stop
For a moment, and let a light moment slip,
But it was drawn out of the darkest debris
Of all that surrounds us, expectations and norms
When life gets too heavy for our bare arms to hold.

So breathe, life into me and draw the pain away
Breathe all that is sorrow, let only lessons stay
And I`ll allow the frequencies to empower the way
For a better now, a glimpse beyond mere words
Inhale all that is peaceful, and divine hopes
That go beyond faith, for it's the moment I`ll show
How to let go of the ego and return to the soul
Breathing as one, inhaling the primal cosmic balm
In the frequencies of the present now
And you`ll feel how the universe's sound,
OM, vibrates through your body whole
As the wolves in the night to their moon they howl.

Period. - 4.12.2019

Blood,
Red flood,
Electric currents in my kidneys and spine,
Everything it touches, it`s pain when I walk
When all red rivers travel up their banks and part.
It drips cold between the thighs
First time, it gets thicker as its size
Coils in small velvet snakes
It doesn`t flow, it lands... ablaze
Inside, the pain`s burning in a haze, and a hammer
Hits me thousand strikes, while curled up
On the floor, not warmer only wet
It makes me sick, nauseous, I regret
Wishing for it to hasten, but now
I`m yet fighting it alone, dizzy, in a vertigo mind-flow
No clear words, no clear paths
Three days in a row, then the pain subsides.
Plastic`s thrown away, and muddy waters
Flush and sway, a bath of colors, blood`s gone but remains
Of pink stains still go round for days,
Patiently waiting the end to strike
Be done with mood swings, euphoria and fright
Be done with red pools, dead pools and smite
Everything that annoys me, be done with fainting
When no one`s around
Black-outs and shivers from hell to winter nights,
It's still this blood, that tells me I`m still alive
Physiologically functioning according to DNA`s helix,
This blood that pours down in water, blood baths in matrix
Until all`s cleared out, safe paths to the cervix.

Hermeneutică - 1.12.2019

Să lași ploaia să te ude, consume
În furtuni de vară, să dansezi
Când cad franghii calde, să te vezi
Precum fotonul prin prismă, să abunde
Lumina din tine, cu ea să te-ncălzești
O viață, mai departe să zbori, s-o găsești
Într-o floare, pe petale sărutate în somn de soare
S-o găsești, în ziua de luni, în nori
Gri fumurii, prăpăstioși, pe nisip
Să o simți în tălpile tale, căci din nimic
Apă s-a făcut, și să înoți în ocean,
Să te simți ca acasă în valuri calde, îmbrățișează
Marea și-ți reamintește-ți de cosmosul pământean
Când râdeam, dar privește înainte
Lasă-ți focul cosmic prin vene să curgă
Și mai departe să lupți, dar să-ți aduci aminte
De universul tău
Și să nu uiți c-avem același muritor eu.

Wholes - 19.11.2019

It took the death of hope to let go,
Get through the day, renouncing her ego
But thoughts would not stop lingering
And she drank again quietly, tearing
Yet another part of the blood-pumping muscle
To keep him whole, help him through the hustle.

Traced all constellations with her fingers
On his body, warmed him, and read
With her hands all stories, bringers
Of hell and heaven both, and knead
A home in her self for him, linger
Forever and a night more, for she tore
Pieces of time so he`d be whole.
Midnight rainbows she`d show if he dared
To let her sail him further on stellar paths,
Just hold her hand and in her eyes stare,
Overdose from a touch, a gaze, the parts..
Of her neck, soft as the silk woven in summer.
Bring the heat, embrace her, realities shift asunder

But pain drips cold drops of acid,
And suddenly he switched, assassin!
Never knowing the weight of thinking,
How happiness may leave while blinking
In a flash of a second, perspectives change
And the dreamt future dissipates in a blaze.

Full moon - 12.11.2019

It filled itself, more brighter still
Amid the shadows, above the hill
We used to run on, now`s just cold
The summer ended by winter's hold.

It looms above, serene and distant
Arms of mist holding an infant,
Young cosmic child of cosmos,
Reminiscent of karmic pathos.

Innocent and pure she's been
Until the rape stole all her will
For moral duty, and a monster
Has been born again, an impostor
Instead of this pretty shell you wonder
At, and fail to see the slaughter
Left behind, a trail of tears
Blood, pain, and fears
Instead of hope and joy,
Were only doubts instead of toys.

But now she's older, more mature
Counting the nights, searching a cure
To heal the wounds still festering
Throughout the years with lettering
On papers, in mind, in the wind thrown out,
Sometimes swallowed by the sea, she shouts
But nobody listens, only the mouths
That know the serpent tongue will steal
An arm and a leg, but the wheel
Will turn again endlessly,
So now she`ll retreat selflessly
To sleep once more peacefully,
To nothingness returned,
The flames inside had burned.

Mukti - 21.10.2019

We're never here, never there
The pages of wisdom were burnt today
The rhythms flow, the waves still dance
We're nothing but the unwilling slaves
Of our past selves, phantom egoes
Driving all these mortal coils,
Dreaming life with joy
And sorrow
Rising from the promised land
There's sadness in the air
Sadness born of doubt.

I dreamed you dreamed about me.
We're all illusions in the end
Until we break the karmic fate,
Until from ignorance we part,
The dharmic duty done with art,
Then long-awaited liberation
Out of knowledge thus arose,
No joy, nor pleasure anymore
No further future incarnation
To wish for any treasure.
But only detachment and willingness
To return to our true nature and state
To speak the truth and then break
The painful circle of Samsara
Into the billion starred silence.
I`ll give up, Your Highness!
I wanted a daughter, Sara
But why let souls suffer?
To bear the folly of this world...
To prepare them for the battle
Make them ready for the war
Within themselves, with good and evil.
Dear, that's not a life to lead
Unless it's blood you want to spill.

I`ll sail away now on these last lines
With loving eyes,
Riddled I leave you, a shifting tide
Take as my mind, don't hold my death as your bride
Take reason as your guide, and understand the game of life.

In the eyes of the night - 20.10.2019

"Hello my dear, it`s been a while"
She tried to run and hide but near
You she found her thoughts again, she feared
She`ll lose herself, a star without a sky
In the night washed by the agony
You shared not long ago, but harmony
And peace you sought within her, no lies
A forest without trees beneath the moon`s eyes
No predator, nor pray in sight, "just us"
Forgetting the bitter dream
Anger's dripping from their voice like a star's scream...
Still you did held on, move on, toward better suns
Cold fingers and shivers intertwined with hers
Longing now, she thought of your star blushing
When it felt the love you born, blood rushing
With your gaze on her bare shoulders
And hushing, the stars that you deny, ashamed
Who`s to blame? "It's only in the mind",
Scared and vulnerable she tried
To undo the fortress' walls so you could have a peek
Inside a soul too weak, to show you all the pain
Apart from the mundane, with demons dancing inside
"Comfortable, see?"
Now would you run, or forget she ever was
If you knew where all the evil within lies?
Or would you stay, and hold her close,
Let all sorrow run its course?
Or change her fate for the worst...

And now the stars too, long for the atoms you stole
It must have been the same aster, a whole
World ahead with billion chances, but you've met
Her on domestic soil, and traveled to netherworlds
In dreams, unconscious desires set free again
She pleads the night with its thousand eyes
To let the day have one, and warm you despise
The winter that's coming harsh across,
For the mind has a thousand more thoughts,
And the heart is but done, cracking, still beating
Still waiting, still weaving...
It's the endless silence that's screaming
And only stops when you're hers and she feels it.

Better - 14.10.2019

I`m sorry for the malice, I had to let it flow
Or else it would consume and bury me low.
It was the only way I could let the poison out
Instead of crawling the walls, and I couldn`t shout
Out loud, how all this life is miserable sometimes,
How nothing makes sense and everything`s chaos.

I`m grateful though for lending an ear
For going all out, locked in memory near
The lightest, warmest rooms in the mazing mind
And every soft word spoken to me, ever so kind.

It's autumn now, sweet colored October
Birthday month, we could get lost in slumber
And sleep the blissful sleep that I so long for,
Until winter takes over, and my body`ll be colder.

I hope we`re alright, I hope you feel better
If life takes you further, or your will for the matter,
Whatever harsh wind may steal you away,
You can always come back, you`re welcome to stay.

I`ll start a bonfire with the stars in ourselves
So we can enjoy a good talk by the waves,
Together embraced, on soft sands and linger
A little while longer, to gather our strength for the meaner
Grim reality that may strike us again,
And ground our roots in the soil, feel the rain
Pouring like blessings, soft whispers of the sky,
With the lightning that comes I`ll ask again "why?"
Until no longer I doubt the reasons and start
Over again, but without falling apart.

I`ll write though, in rivers of ink, and fight
Like a martial arts master all incoming strife,
Watch then the unworthy fly like a runaway kite
For we're warriors before mere actors in life.

Madness - 12.10.2019

She held your hands so close, yet unattainable
You were each moment, second, eon
She held you in silence between
The shadow and the soul
With words inadequate to speak
Stubbornly, you grew more cold
Till nothing left remained to save
From a cluttered mind with thoughts.
Ignorant creature, ever so bold
To think that everything that shines is gold.

Whilst she leaves, you watch her go
Gaze at her spin, you clung to the ego
For more than a thousand stars she's worth!
Jealous you`ll be for tight clothes, touching her soft
Body, and all the glasses she drinks from,
For the rosy red lips, a kiss... taste venom
And it may fill your rivers, your baths with blood
And one last glimpse before whatever may come.
A hurricane to hold you tight
On your most lonesome nights ...
She`s diamonds glued together, prepare for all the cuts,
And the never kept promises, on your flesh she`ll write
So you finally remember, or forget about it all,
Dumb, alone, and terrified, keep clinging to your ignorance
For the only ahead for you is mental hospitals.

Ce? - 04.10.2019

A fost totul ca-n povești
Scrise în inconștient prin vise,
S-au tot pictat dorințe, încă nestinse
De furtunile de dinainte, învinse
De zâmbete, căldura și de felul cum priveai
Clădirile în piatră, fermecat de scări exterioare
Ducând spre suflete nemuritoare,
Făurite demult în stelele care
Din praf de nebuloasă s-au născut
Și te-au împins apoi spre mine
Și m-ai adus la tine, m-ai ținut
Petrecut în illo tempore neștiut
De nimeni, doar simțind energie
Plutind pe nori, rezemată de tine
În cătușe te-am prins, mai rămâi
Nu scăpa, mai dă-mi emoție
O secundă, un veac, ieși din imaginație
Și eliberează-mă de mine,
Iubindu-mă înapoi la viață
Și învață-mă cum să mă fac zeiță
Să dominăm tot ce la călcâie șade
Și să te aleg din panteonul ce perpetuu cade
Zdrobind cu fulgere lumi moarte, planete deșarte
Vor redobândi oxigenul cu care
Ai învățat-o din nou să-l respire
Și mai departe să zboare.

Dissociation - 24. 09. 2019

My battery's low and it's getting dark
Tender was the time when we soared above clouds in the sky
Whether reality or dream everything might
Take a wrong turn now for life can be frightful.
No commitments no more, none ever asked,
The truth and your lies form a storm, delightful
Archangel of wars you slayed minds from dawn till dusk
And fire and ice then slowly danced leaving traces of musk.

So I tried to refrain, or hell would have broken
A new heaven to bear, all stars released
Through the warm feathers, but bliss dawned
In the heart of darkness, and I left and I missed
And still longing I'm numb now and I fail to desist.

My battery's low now and it's getting dark
No fate in sight whatsoever, hope`s left behind, we`re bound
To attachment and pain both in a bundle,
Wrapped with a red rope around our neck,
Slowly strangling the cord, shortened breath
Until  no ashes remain, only stellar carbon and hydrogen
Linger as proof that we`re only a moment,
A consciousness fleeting, purposeless, I'm smoking
Giving up every atonement for one more opponent
To slay as a last act before I lose and drown
In liquid diamonds to die down.

Complementary forces - 06.09.2019

*Disclaimer: Poem written in collaboration with Dennis to whom the first part belongs :)

A twisted mind that fills a hollow soul with poison
Diseased love that starves an anorexic heart
A rotten shell of a body that only wants closure
I was ending even before the start.
I beg death to come and kiss my frozen bleeding lips
But she won't listen, and leaves me in this hell
Every day to fall and crash deeper in my own abyss
I'm broken like a clock that has no time to tell.

But clocks go backward and time is just a concept
Invented by our brain to have life in a context.
The plain abyss looming gray upon us as a shell
Is but illusion, lies, and a highway to the hell
That you so stubborn cling upon, and death
An idea that lures all lost in pain, take a breath
And start over again, forget the body prison,
Let the ghost in the shell drive the flesh with wisdom
And let the crimson color of our blood paint
With shades of hope all life, nobody's a saint.
Power to heal the mind we all share, so wake
The atoms of the stars inside of us
And shine for all with eyes to see
As the lighthouse for sailors in love with the sea. 

Insolație – June 2019

Și dacă cerul ar vorbi în limite

Pe veci să fie ploi de stele înșiruite

Pe un fir în vidul negru, întins de doi bătrâni

De-a lungul veacurilor grele pe unde au fost stăpâni

Cei fără nume mari, ochii înspre goluri

De umplut cu vise, mări de navigat, întinse

Arii de deșert aprinse în roze de culori deschise,

Pe unde șerpii umblă sâsâind și cactușii ascunși de soare,

Fata Morgana la orizont se pare

Că dansează

Cu voaluri purpurii ce prind într-o oază

Nori mari, albaștrii, cumulus de umbre

Te las acum cu gândul că ai trecut de multe.

Perseids – 11.08.2019

Dancer in the dark is spinning our light,

Let go of the stars, fall with them through the night.

With Jupiter the moon was up high in the sky

Perseids shooting above mountains, two bright

Diamonds sparking the darkness of our lives

Bring all your fears, free them from your mind

Let all primal elements show you the path.

Neo – 9.08.2019

I sensed his presence from afar

Heartache blazing like a star

Turning into a white dwarf

Spinning like two electrons

Around atoms, around worlds.

I started falling through wormholes

Inside a mind silenced by grief,

Not once in life we’ve known defeat

Think thus of freedom and learn to let go

Justice’s not found in the matrix of our egos.

Isis – 07.08.2019

Mă întorc din nou la scris

Când nu-mi este permis

Decât prin vis și vers

Să mă descarc, să râd, un antistres

Pentru încă un gând și o nostalgie...

Melodie, m-ai întors în copilărie

M-ai învelit cu totul în melancolie

Căci am copilărit și eu pe ritmurile tale

Și-am îndrăgit împreună același beat,

Și mai rămâi te rog să-ți mai zic

Să-ți spun cum totul din nimic

Desăvârșire face și astfel îți dedic

Un token de pace și o promisiune

Că fără viață pixul nu scrie, ci spune

Încă odată și pentru cei care

Trăiesc prin vers și-ncearcă să doboare

O speranță din ceruri agățată de soare

O clipă de pace să ne mai încânte în mare

O minte ce tace în continuare, dar îți scriu

Aceste cuvinte când încă nu e prea târziu

Pentru simpatie, când încă în zare

Se văd păsări călătoare

Și zbor cu ele într-o stare de vertigo

Așa cum oamenii se fac dor, ergo

Te las să pleci departe într-un paradis

Dulce-amar pe care mi l-ai descris,

În timp ce mă retrag să termin de scris

Încă un catarsis.

Seer – 7.08.2019

Your eyes are full of language

Dare then tell the world of it

Bleed on the page, make carnage

Of all the broken rhythms of your life,

It will be more than enough, and strive

To get your words carried by the wind

Away across oceans and have their minds spin

Around this feeble thread of being.

But guard with hell hounds your spirit,

The monsters are not yet defeated,

They’re in every one insisting

On our greed and lust to beat

And drive the hope afar, but sing

Nevertheless of liberty, freedom

And tragedy, they’re for all to feel

On a speck of dust in the cosmic sea…

And make out of your mind a kingdom

Impregnable by angels and demons,

Villains and heroes alike, but keep this

Light and darkness in a swing

And dance to the slow rhythm

Of bliss. A bittersweet kiss now

I leave for you to give up or keep

It with you in a memory as long as you live.

Te-am cunoscut - 7.08.2019

Te-am căutat pe nisipul ars de soare

Te-am căutat la mal, în valurile care

De dig se spărgeau nervoase răsunând

Note cântate de sirene, înțelegând

Că te-am cunoscut deja în furtunile

De vară,tunând îmi ștergeai gândurile

Și fulgerând, furându-mi nopțile

În care te căutam pe cer deschizând porțile

Raiului de pe pamant, printr-un gând.

Te-am cunoscut într-o seară de vară

În parc, răcoare, era seară

Zâmbeai și reflexia stelelor

În ochii tăi părea grea

Prea mult pentru un copil care

Din dorul nestins, o inimă din soare

A furat lumina și prin vene îi curge vina și sângele

Cosmic și de atunci glasul tău de înger și demon

M-a cuprins cu parfumul de floare

De colț, greu de atins, dar m-ai prins

M-ai stins apoi și-am închis

În camera sufletului vocea și chipul tău

Și pot să spun că de atunci nu mai sunt ateu.

Death machine strike - 7.08.2019

Hey death machine, how have you been

Call out my name, you expect to be seen

Turned my blood into ink, all possible dreams

Are gone by, hopes rest in abyss.

Tell me with those gems of yours,

From what stranger star have you come?

Your heartbeat lost among bright pulsars

Immortalize a moment with the bullets of a gun…

And as the life fades away,

Keep your desires at bay,

For I`ll battle with swords in this art

And fight with words from the heart.

You thought it was easy to love what is absent,

I fear your mortal nature was an enhancement

To this walking nightmare lady clothed in clouds

Storming out of rainbows, releasing the hounds

Of hell and heaven, deserted I’ve only got the stars

The moonlight and night sky as silence abounds.

So, you never call, you never write, you never bend

Centuries pass, I have missed you so, friend

But as the colors in white flowers have no words

So every string to you hidden, burn all records.

While lost in longing, sorrow overflows horizons

Waiting, her body as warm as a heart of a star,

Eyes two green diamonds …

Lilith, lady of the night, lured them all,

Draw them near, slayed their heart.

Glucose - Aug. 2019

You spoke a star into existence that led a world astray

Destroyer of light, darkness - harbinger of hell

Stay only a while, for a whole cosmos obeys

Thy commands, thy laugh, thy cry.

The winds awakening the stars

Are now flowing through our veins

We’re now rainbows struck by lightning,

And these vague lines I’m writing

Are only to portray a sun birthing inside me

Lighting, heating every particle that may

One day reach you and enlighten your way.

Sunet de apel - 31.07.2019

Conglomerate de cuvinte bat, se zbat

În vortexuri năucite în minte, un atac

La liniștea din vidul etern, clipele sfinte

Sunt de mult duse acum, iar tu stai învelit

În fum de cireșe, esența e drogul împărțit

Printre suflete sterse de aceleași momente,

De aceleași zile, persoane decente,

Lăsând amprente concrete când falsitatea,

Mânia, trădarea, le lasă rece,

Când toți au plecat și nici mișcare, nici sunet

Nu pot trece de bariera și eul încărcat, ridicat

Împotriva vântului, dar de fapt

Oprește tot în filtrul mental, rațional,

Senzorialul e ascuns, simțirea drogată-n abisal

Căci orice e pierdut, nimic transformat,

Și nici aceste versuri nu vor fi sperat

Să fie scrise într-un ceas negru pe alb.

Waning moon - 27.06.2019

Off all the flowers I could get

1001 of silver roses on my deathbed

Was what I thought I wanted

In the end, forgetting all souls may wither

The happiness with the unseen dagger of winter,

A silver sword engraved with our initials.

So even you, a lighting striking

All my mornings as of then,

When the dew of the sword fell

Upon her thorn pierced lips,

And the moon – a shield from the abyss

Of the night, sung more quiet than blood dripping

On the chess-checkered floor.

Even you everafter despaired

The night I harvested a star,

When a howlable moon thudded like a quasar

My pain, a fire burning a hole through the nights,

So I became the thunder that sighs,

At the moon during the day,

Prepared that each lover may come my way to slay.

Courtly - May 2019.

Silver and silence, walking through mists

Adrift, toward the hearth of a wrathful Miss
Mercury, I get lost in the innocence and bliss
Of your touch, gentle caress my face as I weep
While making love, and the darkness still creeps
Up in my thoughts, nightmares as I sleep
Blood, murder, and rape, and I scream
Awoken to white noise, we're all in a dream. 

Sedus - 3.04.2019.

Trebuie să-mi refac zidurile
Minții și sufletlui, să-mi adun gândurile
Pe care le-am pus pe hârtie și am pierdut
Rândurile din ultima poezie în timp
Ce mândria și egoul tău au dat la schimb
Sinceritatea pentru un chip
Care-ți seduce și amețește
Simțurile și te adâncește
În iluzii fără un adevăr promis
Și acum mai am un singur vis
La stele să mă redau
Căci doar în noapte-n lumina și umbra lunii,
Cu demoni și ingeri pot de vorbă să stau.

Yana - Apr. 2019

And now I'm lonely with my stars 

Their beauty shines in plains of light
Spread on the vast field of darkness
So small, petty and heartless
Will I still care about a dozen souls
Imprisoned on a speck of dust that rust?
Won't you just hear how the moon howls
At the night, begging it to stay
To cover and hug her in the dark
Though in the morning dawn turns to day
And I still long in a ferryboat to embark
Alone or together, no matter the fall
Let it all go and await my eternal
Sleep and the long sought rest
For no thing has essence, no one is blessed. 

Frights - Mar. 2019

She sees with dragon eyes, in the ice of the skies

Spies all around, but she still tries despise
The bounty on her head that terrifies
Her and she continues her fights
Restless and fierce, the way of the samurais.

But in the end she bravely dies,
On the battlefield, all corpses now rise
Pure hope lost, and a sun refusing to arise
She's cold in the ground low, our tear still dries,
Young flesh preparing to rot, and up above cries
A laughing god, for divine words were lies.

Captured in a swarm of dragonflies,
No longer humans, we should be killed with pesticides
We only talk nonsense to criticize
And summarize souls in desires and a prize
That we long to earn when surrounded by smiles,
Not a moment in time we stop to realize
The deceit and illusions in a world that denies
Peace and at least a truth that survives
When everything perishes and stars supervise. 

Moth hunter - Mar. 2019

Fierce like a storm, she loved like a demon

Tiptoeing around her soul, he felt more human
Until no longer he played dead to her insults
And wrote in her blood curses, changing his mind to defaults
For cyborgs never feel, never care, never bend,
But bring the fire of creation cold at entropy s length.

Her lying eyes always tinkled no matter the weather,
Brought all hearts in a swirl of feathers only to later on suffer
Like no other Cezar, sold each soul captured for a copper
Thus summer was lost, winter recaptured,
Lilith! with the skin of a lizard, all humanity's fractured
With a touch of your hand, deceiving gaze that molds
The purity and innocence into bots,
AIs and living creatures, behold
Organic worlds turned into metal from gold
Like a black widow weaving portals to netherworld.

Flammas cum telas - Mar. 2019

Set your dress on fire and spin around the moon

Woman, see your own beauty don't give in too soon
Allow the tangled stars in your hair to light up the room
And together with your fire spin through typhoons

Then ride with me on firedrakes to the twilight land
Make real out of shadow what galaxies couldn't expand
And spell the dark matter into wonderlands
Whether if heaven's your hell, I'll war by your side. 

Needle in the haystack - 14.03.2019

I am really happy you've been born,
Without your will being questioned
You are still here fighting to learn
Walking the pattern you were destined
To burn, so I blow the horn to battle in your honor.
And I swore when I learned of your art
That every atheist should in heaven mourn
Every truth in your lines being torn apart. 

A monster with weapons of love, mass destruction, silenced my thunders
And light again my spirit through the language of the night
Then every each morning my self wakes at your sight
Molotov cocktails thrown by your smile,
The way your excitement is trying to hide
From prying, curious eyes around puzzled,
Sends flashes of joy tasing my veins
Darling do you speak your mind, so background noise is muzzled
And grateful I'll be for further hurricanes.

Emptiness - Feb. 2019

When you are no thing, there is no upkeep 

When no thing dwells within, all is still
And will without attachment eternal sleep
Through your chants, or spin worshiper, spin !
Counter clockwise until the galaxy's blades spill
The cosmic blood into your fragile human veins
and feed your ego with desires and pain.

If no thingness is all that there is,
If paradise is but the veil of the darkest abyss
Tranquil sleep, eternal dark bring upon me
The last stream of stars,
The last wave of nightmares,
In the last space-time curve,
The first hurricane of feelings and last love
Of my king, his last touch and his smile,
His scent, make us last a while...

Then strike me through lightning
So I'll be returned to Earth...
To live the last life, the ultimate birth
Again to love you sweet darling, place my will at your feet,
Tread carefully, king, cause you tread on my dreams.
Yours truly, for ever ... these lives were all yours
As all what's left of me to be.

Tranquil - Feb. 2019

Abandoned beauty, you ll soon start to fade
Distanced from my dreams, cut like a blade
As time slips away and the crimson smoke rises
From the green lighted water, my emotional crisis
Making no sense to you or any other being,
But oh it makes my weak heart sing
Of a chaos of sensations driven from the ether
Encompassed under all, sweet life give but a bitter
Truth instead of all your alluring, deceitful lies
And I'll trade you for it the print of my eyes. 

Samsara - Feb. 2019

Loud noise, deep breaths
Silent steps, rapid thoughts
Eyes lowered down, sad glances blinded
By fake smiles, voids swirling inside us
Rooms filled with empty hearts, grim skies below us
In puddles called despair, ghostly tears
Absent minds, all this wonder falls behind
A fast paced society, goodbye sobriety!

I have long searched for you, hope!
Only to abandon us again, such a trope
For what we call life, a hangman's rope
when he wants to survive, fatal lies
pretty smiles, it's all but a cycle
of dark after light, embracing each other. 

Altered Metal - Jan. 2019

Damned be my being, cursed be our fate

I now know all possible dreams rest

Forever in the ever empty abyss, while I test

A life gifted through nightmares, wrapped in perfume

Of roses and jasmine, blooming from the primal womb

When the colors of the night bloomed, like fumes from a tomb.

Hey death machine, why are you late?

I've heard you calling out my name

Will you ever stop thinking I'm insane?

Stop chasing the humane inside this feeble

Body. Spirit and brain bring noth but pain.

There's nothing to gain here, but refined evil

So come with fire and unchain the profane

Lying therein, and lend me the mark of Cain.

With metal heavy wings, dark feathers on strings

We`ll fly away or slay, with a passion thirsty for revenge

Until the dawn-that-never-comes, and break then the pledge

Signed with the high archangels, and godly kings, poor victims

Who`ll shortly rocket down of the high mountain ledge

Dive into concrete reality, hopes and dreams shatter

While our burning wrath binds us closer, matter merged with anti-matter.

Howl their pain away - Jan. 2019

Moist worshipper, eyes blazing greenly

She will unmake you, touch you serenely,

Seals your soul pieces together, like a genie

Calling your body into being with the song of a banshee

To bite and kiss every inch of a creature of the sea worshiped by thee.

Bred for impending war, lost love, and chaos

The only dream of making order out of eros,

You see a fire forged halo, but she's pure darkness

Embodied in raw matter, the dead queen became heartless.

Challenged by kings, by knights, humans and demons alike

Everything she does, it's in the name of death,

Slaying innocent dreams, dissecting colorful hopes,

But bow mortal to her nightmares, you're now in her choke-hold.

Breaker of frontiers, bringer of dried tears, all breaths stopped short,

Don't mess with the devil, or she'll drain the fright out of every living soul

Steal the light from their eyes, breathe primeval darkness upon time

To call the everlasting silence with the song of the dying stars.

Remember - Jan. 2019

Remember me in your dreams

And I'll stay with you for eternity.

Remember me in your dreams

And you won't have to look at the stars

To talk to me.

Remember this, you're in my thoughts,

We`ll always be connected

Like two floating astronauts,

Tied to the oxygen tank, protected

From evil eyes, deceiving smiles

From the ever-colored burning stars.

Remember your self, the one you tried to hide

From everybody's eyes, and cunning lies,

Careful as to nobody will ever find out

A treasure deep covered in anger, fear and pride.

Make the most of it, remember no thing,

Remember no one lasts a lifetime

Embrace those demons, crushing

Your hope, give in to me

To remember it all.