Sunday, August 11, 2019

Voice of Treason - 31.12.2018


In the memory of fallen stars,
I stood as soldiers did, on the ground below...
Knees bent, tears dropping in the wind
Raining falling on the grave in front of me
Arms are shaky, crossed as if to hold
What was left inside a hollow ribcage to rot. 

And then I came to realize, death
Was a path to salvation too, only to stop the breath
Of every one they held dear, choking
On the mustard gas, blood on their face washed by rain, hoping
To escape from the nearby
Molotov glass, praying
That this too shall pass.

But what hope is to be had? And what prayer to be sung?
As long as their mother's laments are sung in the background,
A scent of slaughter, these children were too young
For games of blood and lust, anger and gore on the battleground...

How empty and cold the world really is?
How evil a king, a general, mere beasts ...
Are kinder than what currently exists,
So-called society, and culture and civilization
Is it worth to sacrifice their innocence for the sake of a nation?

I'll tell the stars about you - Dec. 2018


You, yes you... the one with an emerald gaze
Talking raven, heart of doom...
Even the light of the moon
Wanes when I see what you hide within,
A typhoon untamed even by old' Typhon.

When you were born, the universe unleashed.
When I tell the stars about you, they cease to release
Their energy and so lose their shine, jealous
Of your symphony, of your rebellious
Nature and your smile, so precious.

What the darkness and the night could not achieve,
My dear, you danced a world into being, so believe
When they bring you flowers every midsummer eve,
Both deadly and lovely, you're everything I hoped to be.

A dream - 03.12.2018


A cosmic matter butterfly needs only
On an astral flower land and solely
Unmake each strand of thought I had
About this life, hope and light
That one day well return to,
Or sleep our blissful sleep in the eternal dark.
Don't wake me just yet, let me dream
The dream of life and death.

When? - Oct. 2018


When the moon kisses the sea
When the sun misses a flower's plea
When the sugar will burn the absinthe in its turn
That's when I'll give up, admit my heart is torn.

Truth or dare - 26.10.2018


What are you doing my dear ?
Lost between the earth and the sky ...
Why do you try to disappear
To forget everything, and hide ....

Don' t run yet, stay a while longer
Do dare disturb this universe
Turn your fear into wonder
And rise high above the water
Steal every possible laughter
And blend that feeling into verse

Jealous moon - 30.09.2018


She waited alone, legs crossed, absent 
Though hell is lovely, I watch her ascend
She waved and smiled a crescent smile,
Brightening the dim room, warming up inside
Like the moon's glow on the cold winter sky
Her eyes two stars deeper than the darkness of night
Her waist long hair makes me want to braid
Galaxies in her silky black strands ...
She walks straight, melodious, unbent
Sometimes her gaze catches mine, though I might melt
And I try to hold it as long as the time is disrupted
Only present is now, the other two I transcend
Thanks to those heart stopping eyes
A damage even mages cannot stop with fire or ice.

Even the moon didn't show up tonight
She shied away cause you were out,
Jealous of the way you shine with that inner light
Together with Mars they covet you from beneath
The dark leaves, through the branches and seek
To match your features and compete with
The way you make use of the darkness inside
The way everything floats when you laugh so light
And all the times Jekyll subsumed to Mr. Hyde
And the way you move your hand through...
Spinning that black lock, clutching to your fingers so smooth

Take these lines to your heart's content
They're not dense, nor heavy, but simply laid
Now that fire and ice are about to be consumed
Tell me why it feels right to do something wrong?
Why can't time stand still as we'll dance on a never-ending song.

Somnia sine terminum - 23.09.2018


Ai fost creat din lacrimile stelelor 
Din focul corpurilor cerești
Adus, încorporat pe un pământ din jurul sferelor
De unde neîncetat, prin sângele tău ademenești
Pe cel mai ignorant dintre pământeni
Și cei mai ascunși alieni.
E rai într un fir de nisip strivit de tălpile tale
Un strop de eternitate captiv în efemera carne.

Frunzele verii s-au lăsat și acum pășesc peste ele
Peste ramurile grele, legănându-se de vânt
Visând că în curând voi fi navigator printre stele
Să ajung să descifrez acel subiect și adevăr ocult
Fără să fie o doar blasfemie, o infamie.
Dar mă trezesc de fapt că e doar o insomnie
Ce produce gânduri ezoterice, empirice, o adicție
Ce mă leagă prin lanțuri nepercepute de o apariție
Țesută printr-o transmutație modernă
Din suflul, cuvântul și pneuma eternă.

Astfel ajung la o percepție teofanică, un surplus
Ce rezultă dintr-o aberație ocultă, o adorație
A unui ideal transpus depășind limitele unui apus
Al dualității între materie și spirit, cauzalitate
A unui sentiment obscur,
Al unui suflet guvernat de Mercur,
Gând furat dintr-un vis fără finalitate,
Fără teamă de moarte, unind două subiecte 
Renunțând la obiecte, pe ritmuri tritonice perfecte,
Melodii compuse din cadența lacrimilor absurde.

Din vocile tăcerii artificiale, transcend limitele
Impuse de regulile fizice, fenomenale, banale, 
Nimic, în afară de gând, nu stă mai mult
În puterea noastră, terestră, ca să ajungem la absolut.

Mojito - 23.09.2018


They said I should write 
In the rhythms of hip hop
That I should try writing rap
But I think that I have a handicap
Cause my rhymes don't follow the lines
Like the moon and the sun align sometimes
In the early morning,
But I'm physically imploding
You're my desire, but I hide it with a wicked
Funeral smile glowing like a burning absinthe
As the raven caws ... calling vengeful spirits.

It is pain and pleasure that guide this penned
Images dressed in ink, drawing thoughts stemmed
From a wearer of a feeble body, merciful host
Striving to unveil the real reality behind the lost
Meanings and truths of this hollow Earth,
A mere expression of the inner fire since birth.

No other way - 09.09.2018


It started only as a game
Between two minds, one is insane
Foolishly, ignoring consequences 
Still shy, holding to abstinence 
But before she made amends
Blindly hoping, not knowing all intents
She let the following words flow,
Not having forever, just taking it slow. 


Regarding the matter of making amends
The reason why it started
World views that departed
Led to uncertain, possible ends.
As long as it's written on paper
It won't be carved in a stone 
It must therefore be safer
To write it on sand, on a sea's shore.
Take heed thus, the words won't last long,
Take them with a grain of salt 
To your heart's content, like a song
Until each one fulfills his part.
There's something one should know 
That one can bear more
That it'll ever be known
It could be said that she'll never be on her knees 
Unless it's pure pleasure, not an endless abyss
That she`ll never stop to listen
From the shadows, to the sea
From time to time she`ll let you miss her
I`m joking ... that ... you`ll never see
However, she won't ever bleed
On those who did not cut her
And if you ask, she`ll never leave 
When the world gets darker 
And always hear and speak with love
Trying to be more subtle,
Make you think you won 
The whole war, when it`s only a battle.
Not letting the wounds show, 
Never let you feel cold alone, 
Never let you lose sight of the horizon
And always doing it with more passion. 


Any time - 09.09.2018


Imagination knows no boundaries
When you have a love affair with words
That haunt you with their beauty, their agonies
Peace otherwise is war by other means,
Even when battles are not won with swords.

Living with your name under my breath
Know then that I died the real death
When the disease of my hand is no longer true
When my overt ink becomes a dim worldview.
When love wears death on her neck
like a sapphire blue,
Let la morte and the maiden dance
And watch them through a window to infinity
Until the spirit is part of eternity,
As the world's empires are long gone by,
As my heart's hidden from the hunter's eye,
As Two spirits are captive in the pains
Of time and space,
As he saw beauty without her clothes, earthly grace.
His voice like a shotgun, sent by Azrael
Sweetened her denial with a lie
As lighting wrote her name across the sky
Even Satan was not alone when he fell
So why wouldn't I take part in
The marriage between heaven and hell?

I dream of it constantly - 24.08.2018


 I dream about January embers melting the snow 
About the flowers of spring in March shingly glow
Beneath the freezing blanket of a winter's tale
Ice piercing spears, reminders of death no more.
So let me lie and call death lovely in this hour,
I dream of it constantly, a heartbeat in a flower.

I dream about hurricanes and ravaging storms,
About heavy silver clouds looming above,
When thunder roars his name, drowning out my own
I dream of it constantly, of innocence reborn.

I dream of far away galaxies wheeling,
About star pimpled skies ceiling
Puppets on ill-intended strings,
I dream of it constantly, a soul purer than absinthe.

Forgiveness - 24.08.2018


He made her dream of galaxies
When he wasn't even fond of the stars...
Mind forged manacles, chaining her light
But she kept on hoping, drawing her might
From all the flowers that bloomed,
Though the heat withered em all.

And like the wild roses forgave summer,
In their giving away of a sweet fragrance
Instead of crying out in pain,
When crushed under a young lover's hands.
She too let the oceans thunder, for her violence
Was not power, but a way she understands
Being sane in a world between sacred and profane.

Forgiven, he'll kiss her in the last verse,
Carved out figure in a timeless chaos,
Cause entropy's got poetry inside too, a curse
And a blessing both to be utterly remarkable for eons.

Whether he chooses to leave or stay
Either be the hero, or the villain to throttle
Her life away, and translate it into the sky by a ray
Forgiven she is for choices made on the rock bottom.

Certain Things - 24.08.2018


There's certain things that I adore
About him, I want nothing more
Than to silence the pain, wash it in the rain,
That turn-to-stone gaze, cast me away.

There's certain things uncalled for,
So rude and cold he looked, a soul so raw
I'll use this pen instead to draw
How streams of thought flow
Since he door-slammed every way
Of sight, speech or touch astray.

Years have passeth by, days in slow motion
There's nothing to hope for in an arctic ocean...
But fear the night when the mistress of chaos will rise
To avenge every butterfly lost, make him apologize.

Acum tu - 11.08.2018


Tu nu-mi ești nici aripă, nici ancoră...
Tu nu-mi ești aici
Stingher și rece rătăcești,
Cu substanțe, iluzii și muze te hrănești,
Ai uitat să iubești..

Amarul ți-l bei, speranțe-le îneci,
Uiți că peste ani ai să treci.
Peste ani, peste clipe, calcând pe morminte.
Dar atunci îți vei aduce aminte:
Cu ochii limpezi, străvezii...
O cauți pretutindeni,
Cu dorințe, aluzii și sufletul pustiu
Te pierzi și iar te lași sedus
Ca un demon întors spre apus.

Phoenix - 11.08.2018


From ashes to ashes
We're rising again
Hand in hand, we pick up the chain
A Black-iron chain, tied on this lane
"Forever" and "ever" just words
With no meaning,
In the end, everyone's leaving.

Last journey on the Styx - 10.08.2018


The wait is like a furry cat in heat devoid of sleep
Similar to whispers of silk wiping blood off a blade..
I've got blood on my hands now, and sins pressing on my chest.
Take me now to your reaper, hold me on my way on the Styx river.

When everything's numb despise knowing
Not all illusions are bad, some are necessary.
When waiting is like the petals of a rose and falling drops of dew,
When everything becomes your reflection, looking into my own eyes is dull.

You stole what could have been, from me and yourself
Now you can never have it back, until we'll transcend the needs of the flesh.
But even I will forget, unless you let me remember
The improbable truth, when the impossible has burned down like a January ember.

I had somebody else’s dream last night, talking to a memory
The Duke of Tharsis it was, purging the years of love and wine
When in my mind you were mine, when you remembered me
I know your love will not last for a century, I now know it will never be
But I'll be singing of your static electricity mastery, dreaming an evergreen reverie
On the other side of this world, in Hades' netherworld, of all attachments free.

These pirates - 09.08.2018


The sailors need time, waves and wind demand authority
But pirates won't take eons, treasures and rum are a priority.
These are stories of the sea but forests of memory grow,
And away from the ocean, rivers of thought flow
Rushing like the boiling blood in my veins,
Ravaging a mind, like havoc caused by hurricanes.

Don't speak yet, don't say a fucking word,
All's gone now, frozen in time, only echoes resound
Of that cursed sailor's mouth, of flashes
Reminiscent of that go-to-hell glare, and ashes
Of the moments lived, never knowing
Your intentions, how he loved to deceive, steady rowing
Through green waters, searching for hidden treasures
Finding mere ghosts of thoughts, dreams and pleasures.

I'm taking it back now, standing on my own,
Untied the dozen braids, turned my heart into stone
Reversed Medusa into a sleeping butterfly on a shore,
My hatred liquefies, all motion nullified, but the waves' roar.

Instead I hold on to this lullaby, than going to this sea war
Until all tensions are translated into something more hardcore
Than what the sirens sing from their deep heart core
I am not mad about him, it's but a nagging mystery
But every mystery's a challenge, till then it's his story. 

Soma - 09.08.2018


Turned time into memory, even though
We're mere stardust, a nature's game known,
Some mud dolls assembled from memories
Rising out of muddy waters, further into miseries.

The lucky get turned into literature, even though
One could never own another, never theirs to hold
Thus I shiver, sigh from bitter truths unspoken
Like the thoughts bleeding on this page, feelings unwroken.

The cursed turn into lonesome riders, coming from war,
With poetry in their eyes, and frightful things a smile can hide,
Their infinite pain undying, caging a beast inside
Not dead, only sleeping, awaiting to come alive.

Some are born to resist, others would die to abuse
Fear nothing more now, nobody's ours to lose.
Even if sometimes hell is other people,
What one sees might be a reflection, a projected sequel.

Daydreams at night - 06.08.2018


it all started on a starless night 
no light, so dark and cold, legs shaking
he was away, she was fervently waiting
to lean in for the first kiss, that fright.

rain pouring heavy, thunder was breaking
the silence around her, like the wrath
of a gentle man, a tingling feel snaking
just below the belt, coiling a war path.

she imagined then, how it would be
to be found again in his arms so thick, free
to feel his rough fingers lift up her chin.
lock her legs around his waist and begin

to withdraw words, moans and cries
on the musical rhythm of a singing satellite.
he made her feel safe again with her hands tied
smiling like a serpent, she dared him to get caught.

it felt like forever, two spirits in flesh
closer to nirvana, moving in slow motion
only to fast forward, her wounds still fresh
from that bittersweet pain,
only a second until that final explosion
now everything is slowed again,
two oceans interwoven.

Broken rhythm - 06.08.2018

And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't like their eyes on my skin
My body's a temple to worship
But only by the one that I let in.

I don't want to be just a pretty face
I want to make you feel, and think, and rage
I'd tell you about all the skeletons in my closet
About all the demons inside writing a sonnet
And show you how hell's supposed to feel like
Then you'll decide if you still want to dwell in my psyche.

Change the calendar - 03.08.2018


She was up again, floating in bright daylight
Pierced the orange morning sky, speaking forthright
Telling them stories, blessed the world with silence
Schrodinger's cat died today, prey to the sirens.

Vertigo grabbed her, but tried to escape again
Defying the heights she's always fallen from serein
Directly into those sparkling ocean eyes ....
He wasn't there yet, everything's numb despise,
The blinding light and the warmth of sunrise.

The wind now feels like snowflakes, freezing
Her hands, shaking while trying to remember
All the stars she saw when he touched her
That night in September, goddamit quit teasing ...
The poor girl's body with that hidden diamond mind
Pain becomes pleasure, as death follows life.

Heartbeats - 01.08.2018

Deep down he saw 
Dark embers burn
Too slow to drive
Away the gore.. 

He felt the rain
Pour over, heavy
paved paths, lone lanes
his heartbeat steady.

he ran to her
cold grave again
to say goodbye
her heart's been drained.

too much to bear
lonesome she felt ...
she felt it all...
a blazing blade
Betrayal won,
And so did fate.

he sang to stars
now as he left.
His sadness grew,
A life bereft
From love and hope,
She died, he lived
But could not cope
With all the grief.

And thus he told
Their story bold,
An ode to sing
Each time the sky
Cried out a roar,
A ballad dyed
From her green eyes.

If this is a mistake - 30.07.2018


So brave he was when they wondered the stars
Atom entwined with atom, loving with the speed of light 
Traveled through nebulae, changing avatars 
A god and a goddess, quasars ignited their might. 

Eons had passed since he starved her fears,
Comets collided forming giant satellites
The world became bright to the songs of the spheres
While he tasted her dreams, he told stories of gunfights. 

Then they became human, on a planet too cold 
They sailed all the seas, she was far too involved.
Not knowing, in his ocean eyes she had always dove
Each sip of eternity she drank willingly, slowed 
The course of time whenever she stood beside him,
Though he didn't want her forever, he was no seraphim.